wish i could.

wish i could:
be someone else
be happy
avoid uncomfortable situations
feel like life is less surreal
feel like i'm me again
enjoy this great weather
appreciate that i am me, not someone with way worse issues
get away from this shit.

love you all.

they can do that???

I have been told that, I either will be forced to move to the middle school next year or forced to find a new job. In many many many more words of course and it was not quite that harsh. The way it was said though was almost worse though. Very round-about and not quite hitting it ever. I finally had to actually say it. Heh. So apparently schools can do that. Well, I guess it keeps life interesting right? Oh but I was told that if a lot of other aides decided not to come back, I could still work at the grade school.
p.s. I love my job, but also hate that somehow I screw up... alot. shit.
love you all!