dustin and paris

it was a beautiful day and a beautiful wedding. things got a little unruly as they seem to do sometimes, but what a wonderful day! time for bed though. congrats to dustin and paris!

kaboom!

I HATE KABOOM COMMERCIALS! i also hate it when people type in all caps... so now I have faced two of my pet peeves today. Just letting everyone know that I'm starting a new blog. Keeping this one as well, but my other blog will be more specialized and more precise about other things. Well, if you feel like it, check out http://www.donotquestionmyobsession.blogspot.com/ It should be interesting. Anyway, I've been doing the unspeakable and working for my inlaws and definitely hating having to do that. But summer work is hard to come by especially at 10 bucks an hour. Doc's certainly doesn't pay that. Even with tips it is hard to make that there so I don't kreally know how I can possibly say no. So I do that and hope that I can make it through the summer. Caio for now. All my love.

wish i could.

wish i could:
be someone else
be happy
avoid uncomfortable situations
feel like life is less surreal
feel like i'm me again
enjoy this great weather
appreciate that i am me, not someone with way worse issues
get away from this shit.

love you all.

they can do that???

I have been told that, I either will be forced to move to the middle school next year or forced to find a new job. In many many many more words of course and it was not quite that harsh. The way it was said though was almost worse though. Very round-about and not quite hitting it ever. I finally had to actually say it. Heh. So apparently schools can do that. Well, I guess it keeps life interesting right? Oh but I was told that if a lot of other aides decided not to come back, I could still work at the grade school.
p.s. I love my job, but also hate that somehow I screw up... alot. shit.
love you all!

life is like a wish list

Have you ever found yourself wanting more even though you have all you need? I have everything I could ever need, but am finding that I want more. So here's my list:
1) finish college
2) work for myself
3) a different vehicle
4) my house remodled
5) more "fun" money

What I hope and plan to do about it:
1) sign up for classes this summer
2) start putting more effort into my work
3) stop complaining and be content that i have a car that works and gets great mileage
4) save some money and start doing the small things this summer on my own
5) realize that fun doesn't take money

Ok, really this may gave been more for me than for anyone else to think about or care about. Thanks for listening. Be back later.
Love for now

flustar.com

the flu is at a season high in sioux center, and i have it. yay! not so fun actually. but if you ever want to see what the flu season is doing, check it out at www.flustar.com it's a great site, especially for teachers or anyone in the care profession to see what's going on with all that. have a lovely day! kisses.
sarbear

my car warranty

setting: home 6:15ish. eating supper of delightful pizza ranch.

*telephone rings* *i pick it up*
me: "Hello?"
prerecorded answering service: "Did you know that your warranty on your car is overdue and on it's final notice? To speak with a customer service agent blahblahblah.
me: *press 1 to speak to agent* -waiting. finally an aswer. "sigh"
telemarketer: "Make and model of your car please."
me: "uh, 94 chevy impala?" (p.s. not my real car)
tm: "How many miles are on your car ma'am?"
me: "I think 129,000." (pps not the real miles on my car)
tm: "Hold on one moment ma'am while I pull up your personal records."
me: "Ok."
tm: "Ma'am did you know that your warranty on your car is overdue and this is your final notice? Have you received any of our post cards to you?"
me: (shocked) "No, I have received any post cards or calls about my warranty! I am so worried about it!"
SILENCE FOR ABOUT 4 SECONDS
tm: "What you are is a smartass, buh bye." (hung up on.)
me: (shrieking with laughter. mom looks at me) "I'm not nice."
mom: "nope."

So.... yay for all telemarketers that actually say things like "smartass" on the phone.

too long gone

it's been way too long, i know. i've been very busy. almost everyone i am close to, who has a significant other, is pregnant. oh yes, i'm kinda just waiting to hear that the few left are preggers as well. i don't begrudge them this, but it does make me feel somewhat left as "the odd (wo)man out" ah well... life here is warming up finally.
p.s. i love telemarketers. really i do. will tell the story in a separate post.

i keep saying

... that i will get a job one day that does not require latex gloves, clorox wipes and/or disinfectant. but i am coming to realize that my wishes are simply not coming true and it doesn't seem like it will be soon before i will have a job that does not require at least one of these things if not all.

besides. i like clorox wipes. they're quite handy.

moral of the day: stop whining and get to work!

tis cold

it's chilly today. my philanges are losing feeling. but that's ok. halloween is coming and kenny is going to be a lion and i am going to be dorothy (wizard of oz...) it'll be fun i think. we are busy and doing lots of work here in iowa. mark is busy with work and finishing up some digging before it gets too cold. i'm working at the school and still love it. it's lots of fun and i have one student who is really kind of difficult but he's so much fun too. he's sweet but has a hard home life which makes me so sad. life in general is good though and we're all having lots of fun. love to all.

NEW JOB!!!

I am currently working at Kinsey Elementary as a teacher's aide in the special education room. I love it! Anyone who would like to know more just ask!
Love you all!

ugh. bad pounding freakin headache.

california was nice, the wedding was really pretty, and the weather was ok. (not great, but ok.) work still sucks and i'm still going nowhere with my life. plus, i would love to hear.... "that sucks and i feel bad for you." with that whole deal. but ah well. love to all until later. sara

stuck on a plateau with nowhere to go

my life is awfully boring compared to all of yours. to be honest, it's quite depressing realizing that i am now working in a job that i would never have taken a couple years ago, because of how it beats down the spirit of a person. now i do all that and still haven't seen much of canada, mexico or the rest of the world to be honest. and i think that morocco is further off than i had ever imagined. as is italy, spain, portugal, and ireland. crap on my life. damn.

my new name... yes i expect you all to call me that.

My Peculiar Aristocratic Title is: Reverend Countess Sara the Essential of Kirkby Overblow Get your Peculiar Aristocratic Title

hey

all are alive and mostly well.

dr. jekell is wrestling hyde for my pride

so i'm a shitty poster. i know. i have news though. i have a new job at nemschoff. i sew all day. funny story though. i got the phone call that i had the job about a month ago and a week later got a letter in the mail with all the details for, you know, the sake of it i guess. and it said blah blah blah, "sewer" and i guess i was tired but read it as "sewer" (like the gross dirty kind.) makes me laugh everytime i see my job title. let's see what else is new.... i get to visit cali in like 2 1/2 weeks for an extended weekend. kenny has learned to dance, his favorite band as of right now is snow patrol. we'll see how that works out. :) he also tries to sing along by rhythmically jabbering on. he can walk well now and is always in something new. he also shakes his head no and says yes and officially says mommy, not just mama anymore. well. i don't want to wear myself out posting too much. ciao for now.

your loves like one last cigarette

so i have a terrible cold and am realizing that i also have given it to many others... namely my family. well, i got the job at nemschoff and will start the 29th granted i pass my drug test (not too worried about that) and i'm pretty excited, but it seems like a long ways off. i'm going to cali for almond blossom festival. the one time a year that our little town of ripon is bustling with strangers. it should be fun though. mark is coming with me too. We had a our family christmas with mark's family this past saturday. mark's only living grandparent is sliding downhill. it's really very sad. she's getting into a bit of alzheimer's and didn't realize that any of us were related to her. i feel really bad for mark because 2 of his other grandparents got to the advanced stages of alzheimers and he's pretty much in denial right now. more or less so ignoring that it even exists. anyone have any advice for how to deal with mark or his dad ( who also is in denial) or his grandma? i would love anything i can use to help them. anyhow, it snowed. quite a bit. the most all winter. not too bad though, i just don't like the roads. don't you hate how it seems like everytime you go away you leave something behind? either at home or where you were visiting? yeah, i did that again. big fun. so i'm missing some shoes and a couple other things. well that's all for now.

[insert favorite lyric here]

too tired to really write. but it's been busy. home was great. missed mark a lot. gave the whole family, on both sides, pink eye. lovely. been working alot this weekend. will be really glad to hopefully get a new job. everyone needs to pray that me sewing on a industrial machine will be good for me and that it will work out. ok, goodnight.

My doctor said take it easy. But your lovin is much too strong

merry christmas all. i leave today after working the nuttiest shift ever. i promise you, i never thought my life would stay this hectic. but evidently it doesn't just change overnight like i thought it might. :) anyhow. thank you to all of you who have been so kind as to tip me at "the doc's" (as dave or jason might say) lately on fridays. i appreciate the support. and yes, it really is hard work. anyhow. i want you all to have a great christmas. as many of you may know, i am going to california for christmas. i will be leaving this mid-afternoon. i will return next saturday evening. if there is an emergency please call my cell. another # will be on there if you cannot reach me on my cell. again, i appreciate all of your (collective your) kindness in the past month. i could not have survived without many of your (Again collective) jokes, smiles, hugs, and just listening ears lately. i do not deserve you friends. but yet, you're stuck with me. thanks. have a very merry christmas and i will see many of you in the new year.

I put a spell on you, when I awake I'll be the first thing you see and you'll realize that you love me

Let's play, "Name that Band!" every post i will have a lyric or two from a song, and you (my 2-3 faithful readers) can try to see if you know the band. so the first was a few ago, so let's just start with this one.

On another note; I've been doing some thinking about things lately.
First: free masons, cult or not?
second: are we a sexuality driven society? (stolen from Paul Krygsman... but it's disturbing me)
third: are we an easily offended nation of people?
fourth: why do Christians try to make it so that God has a view on politics of today? (don't get me wrong, i think he cares about what's happening but I also think that's why he gave us free will... to figure these things out.)
fifth: how do we as Christians, in a secular society, learn to appreciate the different views people have, without judging them and telling them that they're, well, wrong. (this of course does not mean we need to accept their views as our own. or even agree with them.)

On a lighter note; my cousin, Janel, turned 23 yesterday. She's starting to sound responsible and older, but I assure you, not so. :) Just teasing, she's getting more responsible. Not older though. Anyhow. Story for ya'll; SO on her birthday Janel woke up to something I can consider nothing less than hilarious, thoughtful, and sweet. Her younger brother (20) and younger sister (16) baked her a cake and came in singing happy birthday while her younger brother played the harmonica. Yes, harmonica. I had no idea that the harmonica was such a versatile instrument, you know; folk, emo, indie, and apparently the not-so everyday happy birthday. All borrow this instrument and in different, very different music. Well. That's all I've really got to say for now.