never never never says nothing to remember

well. it has been a long month. i was mostly in california for part of it watching my sister get married... i guess that's the only way i know how to put that. um, i like her new husband. he's nice. awkward turtle though that i had never met him before then. weirdness. my brother and his wife had their baby. a little girl named Hazel Rosemary. i haven't gotten to officially meet her either but the pictures of her are adorable... congrats brother and sister! i love you both. the other half of the month has consisted of me being at home and looking for a job and not doing much of anything. my wash machine broke so i am headed to the laundromat to wash some clothes... boo. love to you all

really?

well i'm not going back to the elementary school as a teacher's aide this year. i was offered a certain percentage of time that wasn't enough especially when i was going to have to pay for part of my insurance as well in a very costly sum of somewhere around $200 per month. agh! way too much for what i get paid working there. so therefore i am looking for a new job... again. imagine that. i don't know what to do right now.... i keep thinking it'll just come along, but of course that won't happen. anyway, if any of you hear of a job... one that pays well and gives benefits, full benefits that is, let me know. love to you all.

why don't you sit right down and make me smile

pure melodies and smooth soothing sounds resound from Beach House, Beau Jennings, Ben Wears A Duck Suit, Leah, Lightspeed Champion, She & Him, The Strugglers, and Travis Vick. What a beautiful day. I plan to enjoy this day by relaxing and then doing some easily procrastinated work that just must be done. Boo. JLee is coming home and that makes me way happy. I can't wait. Excitement overflowing. :)

dustin and paris

it was a beautiful day and a beautiful wedding. things got a little unruly as they seem to do sometimes, but what a wonderful day! time for bed though. congrats to dustin and paris!

kaboom!

I HATE KABOOM COMMERCIALS! i also hate it when people type in all caps... so now I have faced two of my pet peeves today. Just letting everyone know that I'm starting a new blog. Keeping this one as well, but my other blog will be more specialized and more precise about other things. Well, if you feel like it, check out http://www.donotquestionmyobsession.blogspot.com/ It should be interesting. Anyway, I've been doing the unspeakable and working for my inlaws and definitely hating having to do that. But summer work is hard to come by especially at 10 bucks an hour. Doc's certainly doesn't pay that. Even with tips it is hard to make that there so I don't kreally know how I can possibly say no. So I do that and hope that I can make it through the summer. Caio for now. All my love.

wish i could.

wish i could:
be someone else
be happy
avoid uncomfortable situations
feel like life is less surreal
feel like i'm me again
enjoy this great weather
appreciate that i am me, not someone with way worse issues
get away from this shit.

love you all.

they can do that???

I have been told that, I either will be forced to move to the middle school next year or forced to find a new job. In many many many more words of course and it was not quite that harsh. The way it was said though was almost worse though. Very round-about and not quite hitting it ever. I finally had to actually say it. Heh. So apparently schools can do that. Well, I guess it keeps life interesting right? Oh but I was told that if a lot of other aides decided not to come back, I could still work at the grade school.
p.s. I love my job, but also hate that somehow I screw up... alot. shit.
love you all!

life is like a wish list

Have you ever found yourself wanting more even though you have all you need? I have everything I could ever need, but am finding that I want more. So here's my list:
1) finish college
2) work for myself
3) a different vehicle
4) my house remodled
5) more "fun" money

What I hope and plan to do about it:
1) sign up for classes this summer
2) start putting more effort into my work
3) stop complaining and be content that i have a car that works and gets great mileage
4) save some money and start doing the small things this summer on my own
5) realize that fun doesn't take money

Ok, really this may gave been more for me than for anyone else to think about or care about. Thanks for listening. Be back later.
Love for now

flustar.com

the flu is at a season high in sioux center, and i have it. yay! not so fun actually. but if you ever want to see what the flu season is doing, check it out at www.flustar.com it's a great site, especially for teachers or anyone in the care profession to see what's going on with all that. have a lovely day! kisses.
sarbear

my car warranty

setting: home 6:15ish. eating supper of delightful pizza ranch.

*telephone rings* *i pick it up*
me: "Hello?"
prerecorded answering service: "Did you know that your warranty on your car is overdue and on it's final notice? To speak with a customer service agent blahblahblah.
me: *press 1 to speak to agent* -waiting. finally an aswer. "sigh"
telemarketer: "Make and model of your car please."
me: "uh, 94 chevy impala?" (p.s. not my real car)
tm: "How many miles are on your car ma'am?"
me: "I think 129,000." (pps not the real miles on my car)
tm: "Hold on one moment ma'am while I pull up your personal records."
me: "Ok."
tm: "Ma'am did you know that your warranty on your car is overdue and this is your final notice? Have you received any of our post cards to you?"
me: (shocked) "No, I have received any post cards or calls about my warranty! I am so worried about it!"
SILENCE FOR ABOUT 4 SECONDS
tm: "What you are is a smartass, buh bye." (hung up on.)
me: (shrieking with laughter. mom looks at me) "I'm not nice."
mom: "nope."

So.... yay for all telemarketers that actually say things like "smartass" on the phone.

too long gone

it's been way too long, i know. i've been very busy. almost everyone i am close to, who has a significant other, is pregnant. oh yes, i'm kinda just waiting to hear that the few left are preggers as well. i don't begrudge them this, but it does make me feel somewhat left as "the odd (wo)man out" ah well... life here is warming up finally.
p.s. i love telemarketers. really i do. will tell the story in a separate post.

i keep saying

... that i will get a job one day that does not require latex gloves, clorox wipes and/or disinfectant. but i am coming to realize that my wishes are simply not coming true and it doesn't seem like it will be soon before i will have a job that does not require at least one of these things if not all.

besides. i like clorox wipes. they're quite handy.

moral of the day: stop whining and get to work!

tis cold

it's chilly today. my philanges are losing feeling. but that's ok. halloween is coming and kenny is going to be a lion and i am going to be dorothy (wizard of oz...) it'll be fun i think. we are busy and doing lots of work here in iowa. mark is busy with work and finishing up some digging before it gets too cold. i'm working at the school and still love it. it's lots of fun and i have one student who is really kind of difficult but he's so much fun too. he's sweet but has a hard home life which makes me so sad. life in general is good though and we're all having lots of fun. love to all.

NEW JOB!!!

I am currently working at Kinsey Elementary as a teacher's aide in the special education room. I love it! Anyone who would like to know more just ask!
Love you all!

ugh. bad pounding freakin headache.

california was nice, the wedding was really pretty, and the weather was ok. (not great, but ok.) work still sucks and i'm still going nowhere with my life. plus, i would love to hear.... "that sucks and i feel bad for you." with that whole deal. but ah well. love to all until later. sara

stuck on a plateau with nowhere to go

my life is awfully boring compared to all of yours. to be honest, it's quite depressing realizing that i am now working in a job that i would never have taken a couple years ago, because of how it beats down the spirit of a person. now i do all that and still haven't seen much of canada, mexico or the rest of the world to be honest. and i think that morocco is further off than i had ever imagined. as is italy, spain, portugal, and ireland. crap on my life. damn.

my new name... yes i expect you all to call me that.

My Peculiar Aristocratic Title is: Reverend Countess Sara the Essential of Kirkby Overblow Get your Peculiar Aristocratic Title

hey

all are alive and mostly well.

dr. jekell is wrestling hyde for my pride

so i'm a shitty poster. i know. i have news though. i have a new job at nemschoff. i sew all day. funny story though. i got the phone call that i had the job about a month ago and a week later got a letter in the mail with all the details for, you know, the sake of it i guess. and it said blah blah blah, "sewer" and i guess i was tired but read it as "sewer" (like the gross dirty kind.) makes me laugh everytime i see my job title. let's see what else is new.... i get to visit cali in like 2 1/2 weeks for an extended weekend. kenny has learned to dance, his favorite band as of right now is snow patrol. we'll see how that works out. :) he also tries to sing along by rhythmically jabbering on. he can walk well now and is always in something new. he also shakes his head no and says yes and officially says mommy, not just mama anymore. well. i don't want to wear myself out posting too much. ciao for now.

your loves like one last cigarette

so i have a terrible cold and am realizing that i also have given it to many others... namely my family. well, i got the job at nemschoff and will start the 29th granted i pass my drug test (not too worried about that) and i'm pretty excited, but it seems like a long ways off. i'm going to cali for almond blossom festival. the one time a year that our little town of ripon is bustling with strangers. it should be fun though. mark is coming with me too. We had a our family christmas with mark's family this past saturday. mark's only living grandparent is sliding downhill. it's really very sad. she's getting into a bit of alzheimer's and didn't realize that any of us were related to her. i feel really bad for mark because 2 of his other grandparents got to the advanced stages of alzheimers and he's pretty much in denial right now. more or less so ignoring that it even exists. anyone have any advice for how to deal with mark or his dad ( who also is in denial) or his grandma? i would love anything i can use to help them. anyhow, it snowed. quite a bit. the most all winter. not too bad though, i just don't like the roads. don't you hate how it seems like everytime you go away you leave something behind? either at home or where you were visiting? yeah, i did that again. big fun. so i'm missing some shoes and a couple other things. well that's all for now.